edISCOURAGEMENT AND FORTIFICATION

For those who have had their heads in a washbasin or those who have read this whole thing, the latter probably outnumbering the former considerably, the recurrent theme here is can he do it and why, it being this. The answer lies hidden deep in LA's subconscious and he is not even sure that HE wants to know it. But there is no denying that there are mornings such as the current one where he wonders if he lost all his marbles in a game when he was eight. What happens then, which is what happens now, is that LA finds reasons to encourage himself to trudge on. The reasons are invariably just as stupid as the concept but occasionally they sound logical once one accepts the insane premise. To be or not to be. Once LA shows up at the computer, his fingers get juiced (this is way before the caffeine has hit his brain) and he is rarin' to go. Any nighttime unhappiness vanishes in the clear pool of nothingness he washes his face with. He is as convinced as if he were starting a new religion in the irrevocable value of his crocked venture. This morning it all feels like an endless joke with no punchline. The joke is the punchline. LA has it in itself to strike out into the realistic world with talent at least equal to many not very good books. But LA also has the restraint to know that the world does not need many more not very good books. It is getting lonely in here. I think a new character must be introduced. I am thinking about a chipmunk named Fred, as a sort of mascot, so we can mix up voices a bit. What do you think?UTTERLY NONSENSICAL AND SORT OF DELIGHTFUL